Life goes on…
2 weeks into the new school year…
The settings still the same, but many people have changed; new faces to the scene, old faces gone, but never forgotten.
For a start.. I miss Matt Rose, his aurora of happiness and ability to cheer everyone up no matter what the occasion; he will be a stand up comedian eventually, and I hereby declare my preorder of front row seats :}?. I also miss a hell of a lot of the other people, namely Sam Mills, Greer, Sam Quartey - Bus 11 isn’t the same. I miss the morning wakeup chats about anything and anyone, crude and needless, but in its own way, uniquely brilliant. If any of you read this, good luck again at uni and I shall make a special effort to come visit UEA a lot 8].
The new year 12’s are amazing though and are shaping up to match the last years banter, many many new people and I havn’t met hardly but theres plenty o’ time yet. And if you are one of those people reading that don’t really know me, just talk to me and I’ll always talk back for ages and ages.
Theres been the fair share of my own drama since schools started, none of its really bothered me for more than a few hours at a time and then I generally get over it. Some of these people don’t realise what they did and I don’t blame them because its over now; some try to hard to make me care and it shows they really didn’t know me as well as they believe because I couldn’t care any less if I tried.
Its a shame its taken me these 2 weeks to realise who my true friends for life will be and how easy my life has been as of yet in comparison to how it could pan out. I’ve become ever more optomistic towards every situation in knowing it will play a very minute part in the long term. Most people will disagree with me when I say I’d rather not care about anything and hardly ever be thatttt dissapointed. I expect the worst at times, but I’m always looking forward; you’ll never find me pondering on ‘what couldv’e been’ but I’m always looking for ‘what comes next’.
I’ve never been very good at making decisions or evaluating the consequences but my new method involves “Will I regret doing this, or regret NOT doing this” and from that I can generally decide on most things. I end up being too busy and out of pocket most of the time butttt, I havn’t regretted one moment of it :}.
Everything happens for a reason, if someone leads you on and chooses someone else then they aren’t worth your time. They’ll only get bored of that person, move on, or attempt to move back to you and just wash, rinse, repeat. Don’t let them walk all over you, only they will have those regrets. You may think it’ll take ages to get over them, but trust me, it happens 100x faster than you can imagine.
I’ve learned a lot this week and its made me think twice about anything and how I’m lucky how I am, without my minor imperfections, I wouldn’t be me. I’m wayyyy behind everyone I know in University hooha and personal statementzz zz z zZzz… and yeah, I don’t know what I want to do, or where I want to be 5 years from now. Noone really does, its impossible without knowing what supirses the future may hold.
Mentions to Tom, Nick and Rai. Oldschool for life. I <3 you all forever, its hard to find people who are so down to earth and not in this private school fantasy land where everything is wrapped up in cotton wool and the fairies will make everything better. To those that just sob when they don’t get their own way and get daddy to fix everything by sticking his hand in his wallet. Most of you take way too much for granted, they’ll buy you a car even when you’ll go apeshit at them for coming to pick you up too early from a party. Get real. I needed my feet to be kept firmly on the ground and without you lot I’d probably be up in my snobby little fairytale which is about to anal rape the lot of them when they have to fend for themselves. </rant> Again a mention to Sian, no matter whats happened in the past, she’ll always listen, and as much as I hate it, shes always right. There for me when I’m at my worst and welcomes me when I storm out of my house at 9pm with no idea where im heading. Love you always. Yaz too for being the same as ever and not changing for anyone, friend for life OH AND YAZISCRAZY. Last but not least the kynasaurus lux for being the freest spirit of them all and always brightening my day no matter what - youuuu are my cr@Zy & l@Zy heroin AND WE WILL TRAVEL AFRICA. MARK MY WORDS. THIS IS MY PROMISE.
As I near the end of this epic blog I wonder why I didn’t spend this much time on homework ever =/ and why I’ve become philosophical and soppy. Some of it will seem like a direct burn aimed at people but really a generalisation, with some influential inspirations ;} I love you all, even those of you that detest me.
Ima go rest for another 2 weeks now.
OH and someone come wonder down to Kings Cross with me and see if we can get tickets to Katy Perry on the 24th September. :}! Also I had my internet when I started this but I’ve taken so long its been switched off so I’ll just save it and post it in the morning.
Make my Year. You know you want to.
